2015
2015 was probably one of the best years for me, so much of my life has changed whether it was for better or for worst, starting 2016 I have a clear head and in a lot better place that I was this time last year.
The start of 2015 began with me being unhappy, deciding to drop out of college and which kind of lead to me starting my blog. College was one thing that I massively regret. I was studying Art and something about it just felt worthless, time wasting and made me feel down constantly. I realise how unhappy I really was over the Christmas holidays of 2014, when I was off and had time to properly think it just clicked that it I was living a life that I hated. I made a promise to myself at the beginning of 2015 to make this year about me, put myself first for a change, live how I wanted to live and all round just be happy. So I made the bold decision to leave, then I was unemployed for around 2 months.
That 2 months, were the months that were the make or break for me. It was the time that I really had time to find myself, to find exactly what I loved, set goals for myself and generally have time to rediscover the parts of me that we're lost. This is when I really got into blogging and realised how much I loved it, it's like an escape for me. When it comes to blogging I always felt like, and sometimes still do, that I'm not pretty enough or stylish enough and I'm not the flawless blogger that anyone wants to look like. But products, beauty, makeup etc. is what I enjoy, other girls can do it so why can't I?
Then in March I secured my first proper job, an apprentice in Business Administration. This was a big step for me entering the world of work. But I took it all in my stride, gained confidence, made new friends, matured and achieved things that I never thought that I could. Work has taught me about commitments and how the only person who can help myself is me. Also, money means freedom.Having my own money and budgeting, being able to do and get whatever I wanted for the first time was one thing I definitely can't complain about.
Soon June came around meaning I turned 19 so my boyfriend and I visited London to celebrate that and our anniversary, canny aren't we. London was the first kind of holiday/trip that I paid for everything myself for, totally independant. It was also the first tie going away without my parents. The experience was a total dream, I loved the freedom and getting up and exploring, seeing new things and places, no one telling us what to do and no commitments or ties while we were there, just totally doing whatever we wanted.
July came round and I was offered a new post for where I work, a higher paid post. My new job takes a lot more work and is a lot more specialised and is has a better wage, always a bonus! So this has learnt me even more, met more people and achieved more than what I thought I would.
So soon enough Autumn came in and I really focused on my work. One thing that I did learn over these months was how much I don't enjoy alcohol, going clubbing just isn't enjoyable for me and I just realised like why do I do this I hate it? Call me boring but nights drunk around the town just isn't my type of enjoyable night out, which has lead to me being left out by friends since most 19 year olds only socialise through alcohol but nevertheless, I'm not doing that because others enjoy it.
Soon enough Christmas time rolled round. This christmas I actually had money to spend on gifts and didn't have to worry about costs. I got so excited for Christmas day to give my parents their presents, I put a lot of thought, time and money into each gift and it was a different kind of excitement, rather than it being because I was recieving it was because I was giving. Christmas was spent with family which I loved. I didn't really do anything exciting I just loved the relaxation. One thing that was a big highlight over Christmas was a night that I spent with my dad. Normally in my family my mam and I spend more time together and then my dad and brother spend more time together. My dad and I both wanted to go see 'Heart of the Sea' at the cinema, so we both we together. Its the first time since I was like 13 that I've went to the cinema with a parent but I loved it. It was time that I wouldn't of normally had with my dad, we laughed together, filled up on sweets and over priced cinema pepsi and then finished off the night with a Nandos. I know that its only cinema and a meal with my dad but its something that I've never done, not because we don't want to or that we don't get along or anything like that, we just don't and I really enjoyed spending that time with him.
The new year then came round and 2015 came to an end, so looking forward into 2016 I wanted to set some kind of 'goals' or the things I'd like to happen this year. So i thought I'd make a post about it so this time next year I can look back...
- Continue to try to make myself happy, do what it takes to find what makes me happy, if I need to be selfish then do it. Happiness is valuable.
- Money doesn't matter. Buy the dress, go on holiday. It doesn't matter about the cost.
- Make the most of every opportunity I'm offered.
- Blog more.
- Attempt to fashion blog.
- Have more time to myself.
- Travel
- Try to healthily lose weight and exercise.
A short list but its all I want for this year, these are all things that will better myself and that all I really want.
So thank you for reading.
All the best for 2016!
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